Sitting here crying

I'm sitting here crying.
to the point of exhaustation yet I cannot sleep.
I'm sitting here crying.
But you do not weep.
I'm stting here crying.
trying to make sense of this world with no luck.

I searched a decade for you
and I knew since I started that I would loose you.
Filled with disappointments, I can't pick my body off the ground.
I'm leaving every thing now
Faith takes every thing from me with only visits left for the cementry.

And here I am, alone loosing a battle I had no right in fighting
all while you sleep.