Sick =(

Well I had this entire week off and how did I spend it? Sick. First I had a sore throat and that has gone away almost completely though I still feel tired. Now, though, I have a stomach bug now. I can barely keep my ginger ale down and I don't mean it's coming back puking either.... ewww... so that is fun. I think it's a combination of what was left in my system from the Alli program I was on just prior to when I got sick. I guess it was still in my system I didn't know it but now it's reeking havoc on my digestive system and well making me go to the bathroom a lot! I guess in a way it's good but still I'm not liking the fact that I'm afraid to get out of bed. I just hope this goes away by Monday morning (that's when school starts again).


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I'm losing my friends and I don't know why

I'm losing my friends, and I don't know why.
They were here a second ago,
and now,
now, I don't know where they are.

I'm laying here alone in my room wondering where was it that I went wrong
When did I make the mistake that made them go away?
When did I decide to be alone? Captive in this room away from the world?

I don't remember choosing, I don't remember anything.
Where should I go from here? What should I do?
I wish I had my friends back to guide me, to bring back security.

People Suck

As I sit here watching one of my favorite movies, I find myself not being able to enjoy it as much as I normally do. Why? Well, for many reasons. One, in the midst of taking a nap, I get screamed at to wake up. For dinner, every thing is my favorite but I cannot eat a thing because I gave it up for lent, and yet they tell me to eat. I go away to get a way, I play on my computer, I turn off my computer and I get yelled at for doing it. I snap back because there is no reason to be snapped at and I feel as if I am forced to starve because though people did try, it is still lent and no one listens to me. So, in simple terms I'm cranky and I don't like being treated the way I was in the past few hours of my life. People just simply in no other better expression, suck.

My Photos from Amy's Visit and Then Some =)

The Most Extreme.....

.....outrageous flirt.... gotta love animal planet. =)

Hmm, what is there to report, other than I'm just plain old sick? Well, school is going well. ELA's for the time being are over, thank goodness, and the detention room isn't as full. I have been staying every day these past few weeks so that means I've made an extra 250, not bad for being able to sit and read really for an hour and twenty minutes. =) Gotta love the world of education, lol.


So, I haven't posted anything about the gym as I said I would, and well the reason for that is simple. I haven't gone. I know, I need to go. Between the weather and me getting sick, I can barely move once I'm home. But the weather is getting better and I'm feeling like my old self with just a stuffy noise, =P

There really isn't too much else to report, I'm really just waiting for my old meds to kick and knock me out. Any one else excited that tomorrow is Saturday?? I know not getting up at 6am will be a beautiful thing! =D



good-night


ps
the most extreme flirt goes out to the African Elephant =P

What to say...

Today has been a gloomy kind of day. I didn't do too much at work but I did feel out of it. When I came home I wanted to go to the gym since I haven't gone in few days and I wanna get back into the swing of things, especially after I told Pete's mom I was going too (she's using me to motivate herself, i guess), but the weather just made me feel crappy and thus I stood home. Now I'm sitting here feeling like crap and I just want to go to sleep and screw my night shower and take it in the morning. I can't do that though as I know I won't do it in the morning because I'll want to sleep.

Bah... what to do, what to do.

Maybe tomorrow I'll get to do what I want....ya.....


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Why Stay?

So this is my question. If you are taken out of a life to the point you are only welcomed as an outsider, why would you stay around? Wouldn't bother you in the least to know that what was will never be again? That no matter how much time passes you will forever be an outsider?

Perhaps it's because I've been on the other side of the looking glass to some extent that I cannot help but wonder what is wrong with today's society? Why would someone want to stay on the outskirts of existence in order to relish in something that is fleeting? Isn't that there a point where you just walk away and just hope for the best?

I really just don't understand, and I really hope the truth sets in soon and I no longer need to tip toe a long my own perimeter.