Sad

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. All I know is that I’m sad. I have all these things swimming inside my head and no where to pour them out. I feel abandon and lost. I’m scared and I want to collapse. I want to shed this body and start over again. Maybe then I’d get it right. Maybe then I won’t some how loose my friends, maybe then I can warn others so that their lives aren’t shorten. I only have so much life inside, only so much strength to fight. I’m loosing the battle. Holding on to whatever is left inside. The tears that stream down my face are ones of defeat. I am defeated. But there is no bottom to this black hole. There is nothing but a hollow emptiness from a life I cannot change.