I don't want to die.

I really don't. I'm just constantly sick. First, I had a cancer scare for close to a year. That was fun. Now they're telling me I could have something wrong with my uterus. Since Novemeber I have had everything from bacterial infection to random fevers to nausua for 3 months straight. I even have cancer anti-nausua pills for that one. lol.

Seriously though, who wants to be sick? Though I'd rather on me then with other people who I care about. Maybe it's a sign of things to come so I should get on my ass and start taking care of me and not be so lazy about it. I let myself go --- seriously. It's time I brought it back-- better then ever this time around! I'm giving myself starting from birthday (my major projects are done then) and all the summer to get me back to me. I'm going to focus on that gym of mine and getting out more. Even my completion changed. I used to wear natural tan -- looked flawless couldn't tell I had it on.. Now pale almond does that for me --- PALE FRIGIN ALMOND. Sheesh. What does that tell you?

So, that's my plan. I figure whatever cancer comes back to bite me in the ass or any thing else God wishes to through at me I'll be ready phyiscally for it. Plus, I'd rather be able to say I did it then I should've or I wish I did.

This is the time to do it. As the song says, sometimes a second chance is the best thing. This is my second chance for myself. I wish me good luck lol.